Hubby and I had our meeting with the educational psychologist this morning. The relief I feel is so good. She said to us that she has not spoken to the teacher as she prefers to work without preconceived notions. (I feel better). She asked us questions about Honeybear and the type of child that he is and all the little things to get to know our little boy from our point of view.
I am going nuts I think. I just cannot stop reading and reading and reading and it is taking over everything. I have a reading problem.
I was reading Marcia’s blog about the number of books read in a year and I read a lot. I only realised it when I commented there. And this weekend I remembered….
I read and read and lose myself in books when I am troubled. Last year was a year of turmoil for me, in terms of work and getting used to big school with Honeybear. Hubby and I seemed to to disconnect for bit too. Living past each other, with all this stuff going on in our lives.
I am still reading like a crazy woman, and I do feel troubled. Hubby is working longer hours with his new position and sometimes it is a whole twenty four hours before all three of us connect. We connect among the routine of our lives, getting ready for work, school, laundry, cricket games…which is not much of a connection. I am pretty busy working my day job and then my private work and then the PTA, and body corporate…and being a Mom. I am so excited about HB learning to read, that I have to spend every afternoon with him, making sure he does not fall behind. Hubby and I are back to stolen kisses and promises to sit down together. Hubby works one weekend, I work the other weekend…and so it goes.
This all came to me as I sat in a dingy hot office on Friday morning with my latest student. The lady I was trying to sweet talk into helping started dishing out relationship advice to my student and myself. She divorced her husband after 24 years. You would think that after 24 years you have it sorted…you must never take things for granted.
She said that they divorced because they never made time for each other anymore and that she did not understand his love language, and vice versa. (we were there for 35 minutes, but that is the essence). This has had me thinking, in my weekend frenzy of reading. Hubby and I need to take a time out. We need to be with each other again. I am not sure how I will make this happen. I am going to suck up my pride and I ask my long time friend if she is willing to have three kids for an afternoon, and maybe hubby and I can have an old-fashioned date.
I read because it helps me resolve things, and it helps me escape and it helps me breathe…escapism.
I am not sleeping so well without Honeybear in our bed. I know it sounds mad, but I do worry about my baby and find myself walking to his room to check up on him.
I love reading bedtime stories as much as Honeybear loves listening to them. This Christmas we did not do the advent calendar, instead we read a new Christmas story or poem every night. Now we are onto Roald Dahl (I love Roald Dahl). I need to find bedtime books I can read and be interested in too. Poems are brilliant, Shakespeare’s sonnets are a hit. Wordsworth too.
Today is the first day of holiday care. Hubby is dropping him off at school today. I hope it goes well. I made Hubby promise to call me as soon as drop of is done. My little sensitive one…I know he will be fine, but I just cannot help but worry for his tender heart.
Work is in full swing, and I know it will get busier next week when everyone else is back.
Big school has too many activities. I already have a host of items I need to pay attention to in my calendar, and he has not even started school yet! Good thing the school communicator makes it easier to track. I fear to be one of those Mom’s who forgot. (Last year I forgot to buy concert tickets. Lucky the school knew that I made a mistake and reminded me the day before.)
My in laws seem to have lost it. Poor hubby. I know he is worried for them, but not much we can do. In their seventies, a lifetime of being together, and they have now decided they just cannot do it anymore.
My random thoughts, in no particular order. Have a great day.