Where I am now? It has been a hard year for me in terms of work. I always seem to be having work issues it seems. The last place really agonised me.
I left a place I had been at for a long time. I needed to. I could not afford to work there because Hubby and I were literally counting the cents. I loved the people and atmosphere, etc…but the money was the deciding factor.
Next place offered the salary I asked, only to be unable to afford anyone’s salary six months down the line. Also, I found out they were doing not so kosher business dealings. I had to leave.
The next place was desperation. Once again everything seemed fine, until they told me how unhappy they were with my work. I was flabbergasted as I had never been in such a situation before. I was a broken woman. So I just found another job and left. I later found out they were going down the tubes and could not afford salaries. They did end up washed out, had to close down the business and the owner was shot by a disgruntled client.
My current place seemed great. I was really happy. I over compensated a bit and worked so very hard, in case anyone thought I was not a good worker. I was really broken by the previous place telling me they were not happy with me. It went fine for about a year and then things started to seriously go down hill. Temper tantrums from the boss. Shouting and swearing and screaming. I was so shocked. I thought it was me, only to think about it more and see that no one should behave in that way. It is never right. It happened to everyone (except the favourite). It is crazy. No one feels safe. And then when the one sane boss also lost it, I thought it was time. I could have no self respect to accept that kind of behavior. The last straw was being shouted at by the boss for something that was not my fault. With no opportunity to explain. The other one sat there and watched, knowing it was not me. And when it was resolved that it was not me, but him that made this disaster, no apology was forthcoming for the bad behavior. To make matters worse, they told our client that it was me that did everything wrong. Me? I did not even work in that office when the disaster was made. I had raised my concerns and it was pushed away. To make it worse, other professionals in the field (we work with them)…they think our office is a joke. Our directors are without vision (I was told so directly). They have no future plan. The company is stagnating. What to say when you are told this? I said nothing because you do not talk bad about your office.
The last week of work, I was called for an interview with another office. I am so unsure. All my decisions since I have left the first place have been so far off the mark. I have researched all I can research. Why do they need staff? Are they also crazy and all the staff is leaving? Are they so successful that they need new people? How do I make the right decisions? Granted, I do not have the job, just an interview.
I have a week left to figure it out.