Where am I now?
- Hubby and I do already take turns on the pick up and drop of. It just so happens Hubby already works crazy hours so for him it is not any different. He just does not see the need to worry about working extra hours. For me, it is important to spend time with my family and there is no competition in my mind, family always comes first. Hubby on the other hand, does not concern himself with such things. I think he is better at letting go than I am.
- My work situation is not unique to me. Everyone in this office has too much to do. Perhaps a thank you would help more than a slap on the wrist when deadlines are not met. It is not as if anyone is not trying.
- I have decided for the short term to just work late on the afternoons Hubby fetches Honeybear, but this cannot go on forever, the office has to make a plan. We do not have enough staff at the moment, and while there are endless interviews, no match has been found.
- I have given up and let the traffic go. I cannot control the traffic and I just have to make it work for me. I will be late, however, other people are also sitting in this same traffic and living with it. I know I am not likely to be fired for being late.
- I have promised to bake cupcakes for Honeybear’s class. This will be it for now. This will fulfill my need to be involved in school There are Mom’s better suited to this than I am, and cupcakes is where I stop for now. Oh, and I have the Mandela day squares to knit, but I love to do that kind of thing, so it makes me happy.
- Weekends are my time. No work. If I do work, it is in the in between times, and will not take up my family time. If a file cannot be taken home, it is not going to happen.
- After having pulled out much of my hair, because there is no holiday care for the half term holiday, Honeybear’s teacher took pity on me and organised the teacher’s assistant to help me. The teacher’s assistant will come to our house and babysit Honeybear. This is such a relief. I was having visions of sticking HB under my table and locking him in my stationary cupboard when I am on site.
Generally I am practicing consciously letting go. The serenity prayer they use in AA is brilliant.