I feel like something the cat dragged in this morning. Honeybear would not settle. We put him to sleep as usual and it was fine. I went to bed and then he woke for milk two hours after putting him to bed. I fed him. He screamed about 10 minutes later. Hubby brought him to our bed and he screamed and screamed and screamed. I fed him again and we fell asleep. 1.5 hours later he is crying again. I fed him. 1.5 hours later he is up again. So we tried all sorts of everything, with him screaming the whole time. So I fed him again after 45 minutes and I could not take it. And he decides he wants to play. On my head on me, any part of me. So I gave up and took him back to his room and got into bed with him. He screamed more and then I fed him and he eventually fell asleep. I slept for about 45 minutes and it was time to dress for work.
He woke promptly 2 hours later for a feed before work.
Does a 10 month old baby really need to drink this much milk?
Sunday menu for him:
11h00:Rice and veggies
15h00:Rice cake snack
18h00: 2 Pumpkin fritters
And then it was milk whenever he wanted.
My back is sore from sleeping twisted next to him that I cannot even bend to pick something up. He refuses to accept comfort from hubby. He screams more. He flings his dummy away and screams. You give it back, he quietens for a few minutes (less than 5) and then flings it away and screams again. The longest we have lasted before just giving in is 45 minutes. I know hubby is feeling worse and worse because it seems he cannot help me with this. Honeybear gets more upset if hubby tries to do anything.
Must I force feed him more, because perhaps he is not eating enough? We feed until he does not want to open his mouth or he starts throwing the food around instead of eating it. I was just reading Tourmaline’s post. Caleb is 9.4 kgs. Honeybear is just pushing 8kgs and he is 10 months old! Are we not feeding him enough? I know the clinic sister said he was fine and so did the paediatrician but I still can’t help but wonder if we are doing something wrong.
He sleeps in his own room, so we thought perhaps he must sleep in our bed to get him to sleep longer. It is not working. The night wakings’ are getting worse, not better. I don’t believe formula will work because I thought he was eating enough.
I spend every weekend sitting on the floor with him so he gets sufficient cuddles during the day if that is why he is waking. I hold him in my arms for at least one of the afternoon naps so he knows mama is there.
Now he is beginning to cry if I leave the room as well. I know it will pass, I know that, but last night was hard. This morning was hard. I am sitting here in pain, breastfeeding won’t allow me to take anything strong. I have had 2 cups of decaf coffee and 2 cups of tea, all loaded with sugar and it is not even 08h00 yet. I am thinking about another cup of tea.
The other thing that is beginning to worry me is the lack of teeth. He does not have any teeth yet. I know they will probably pop out soon. However, when he is one of two kids in his class without teeth it bothers me. He is the third oldest in a group of 11. The only other child without teeth is 5 months old. The lack of teeth have allowed us to breastfeed comfortably this long, and I have welcomed the absence of teeth. Is there something I must worry about. I tell myself they will come because the gums are hard, so they must be under there. I tell myself it is a sign that I must breastfeed for longer because it is good for him and the lack of teeth make it easy for me. I am beginning to second guess our decision to breastfeed for a year.
Maybe it was the rough night…but this morning I feel totally inadequate as a mother.