Just got back from the doctor’s office. I have loads to think about. First thing, I was not really expecting a full gynae exam, again. I hate those, and this time Hubby was there with me. It was undignified and I hate them. Ok we got past that and he did an ultrasound of our little one (I am going to call him/her Kitten). Kitten has not really made an appearance yet. Kitten is currently too small to see and what we can see is the gestational sac. So cool, we know it is early days still. We have an appointment in two weeks to hear the heartbeat. It is exciting times.
The Doc says to me he only does C-sections. Having seen one C-section, I have no desire to have one myself. I asked why. He says that it is safer, as he as the doctor has more control of the birth and he has seen too many things go wrong with natural childbirth. He also explained all the risks involved with C-sections. I want a healthy baby and I want it to go well. I really am not sure what to do now. I choose now to either find a different doctor or prepare myself for a C-section. I am terrified about C-sections. I still have time to think about these things, but I still have to make a decision.
Hubby says he does not like the doctor. He says he does not like his bedside manner and the way he examined my breasts. I think a large part of it was some other man handling my breasts and sticking things up me, not so much the doctor. However, Hubby thinks we should change doctors. I think if I knew I was going to have a full exam like that, I would not have had Hubby in the room. Hubby says that he was not wearing gloves. Hmmm….I could not see what he was doing but not wearing gloves does not sound right to me. In addition, the doctor talks about himself in third person. He is extremely odd. I have seen him before, and he seemed fine to me. The one thing I really do not like is that we had to wait an hour and half for our appointment. He is that late. The last time I waited two hours. This is highly problematic because we have to get off work and go sit in the waiting room for that long. Then we still have to have our exam and drive back.
Anyway, we got to see the gestational sac that is only about 7mm long and it is this tiny spot in my uterus. When the doctor pointed out the sac, Hubby was standing there stroking my arm, I on the other hand did not feel much. I was uncomfortable with the ultrasound stick inside me. I hate it.
I am worried about this whole C-section thing. In addition, how do I find a decent ob. /gyn.? I want to go to a specific hospital so I chose the ob. /gym accordingly. So I go to another doc next time and then what? What if the next one is just as odd? Ugh. I will need to sit down with Hubby and we need to talk about this. It also is partly Hubby’s decision. It is his baby too.
I am happy to see that sac, because I do not feel very pregnant and it was a relief to know that Kitten is still there and we will hear a heartbeat in two weeks. I am excited and I think the visit to the doc made it all seem more real.