I’m going crazy I think. I seem to be all over the place. I know I am emotional and feeling all sensitive, but it is as if I am standing outside my body when I say all the horrible things that I do. I know I should not, even when I am saying them, but I still do anyway. Hubby, the caring loving person that he is, still hugs me and kisses me afterward.
Work seems to have taken over my life, and I feel out of control. I spoke to one of the bosses about getting some help, and I do have some help now, but it seems to be a constant struggle with the boss I am working with now. He drives me insane. He does not understand me, I do not understand him, I am so stressed about messing up. I am so afraid I am going to make a huge mistake. I have aired my fears to the boss, and I guess I will see this week if there is any change. This constant stress has my head messed up.
It is not an excuse for me being nasty. That is a decision I make, sometimes I do it purposely. I just feel out of control, and I guess that then filters to all areas of my life, and I become out of control. I feel as if there is no solution to this work thing. Maybe I need to call it quits. Then I think to myself that bad situations will arise anywhere. Having personality clashes with the boss can happen in another office too. I just need to stay and work it out for now. That is easier said then done.
Anyway, I should be working now, to catch up with all that I can’t seem to catch up on. I’ll try to be good, will you?