Have you ever heard that term bored to tears? Ever actually thought what it means? I know. About two hours ago I sat in a closed toilet stall crying because I am so bored. I did not really think these things happen, but they do. I cannot take this lack of work anymore. Hubby is no help, he is too busy at work to talk to me, I’m jealous. I love having too much to do. Then I have a plan and I get stuff done. Here I have to pretend I am busy, but there is nothing to do! Someone give me work. I feel like speaking to one of the directors about this. I can see I am really unhappy about this. I can see it is going to get worse. I don’t want to be sitting in the toilet crying again. And what a worthless reason to lose tears over…Boredom.
I even considered pretending to be ill so I could just go home. I am not sure why I should have no work. At this stage I should be really busy, but it is not happening. I have tried to make up all sorts to do, but I am now outta ideas. I guess it could be worse. I could be at home without a job.
Also, it does not help that I am currently listening to really bad music, but at least it is music.
I still can’t eat. Well nothing is wrong, I can put food in my mouth, chew and swallow. However, everything still smells bad and even though I get hungry, I cannot make myself eat the stuff. To Nessers, I did go pee on a stick. Nothing. Right now to be pregnant would be a relief. I would know what all this is about. I’m thinking the crying in the toilet is partly to do with it.
So there is a MOB this Saturday here in Pretoria. I’m still wondering whether I should go or not. Well I have till the end of the day to decide. I’m not sure I want people to know who I am. There is a comfort in anonymity. It allows me to write freely. I can just put down the things that float around in my head. On the other hand, I do not want to miss the opportunity to meet new people. I read the list of people that have said that they will attend, and disappointingly there are not many women24 bloggers. Do you guys know there is a MOB this Saturday? Go check out Penny the Letterdash community manager’s blog. It is called Joburg MOB ( I hope I got that right. I would post a link, but it does not always work).
At least I have looked busy while typing this blog so people think I am not totally wasting time. Work is wasting my time.