I’m wondering if people are thinking straight. My sister, I wrote about her before. She is married to the wife-beater. She left him for a while, more like he kicked her out for another woman. So she was back with the parents. Today the parents tell me she is back with him. And now the parents are the evil ones. She up and left, they did not even know she had moved out again. This from people who have not told her she should leave him, people who have supported her whatever she did, picked her up in the street at night because her in laws beat her up. This is why one should never get between a husband and wife, no matter how bad it looks. So she is off with the wife-beater until the next time she needs the parents to come pick her off the floor because she tried suicide again, or because the wife-beater has kicked her out, or because the wife-beater has brought home some sti from sleeping around.
Yes, I have heard all the stories about beaten women and why they can’t leave. I know all of that. However, there is a thing called respect. My parents deserve a little respect for all the times they picked her up when the wife-beater pushed her down. It was the parents that sat at her hospital bedside when the wife beater could not even call to see if she was still alive. I do not pretend to know what battered women go through. I do not pretend to understand how someone else can erode away your self-worth so you believe you can do no better than a wife beater. I do not understand any of it. And I don’t want to understand!
I am angry at my sister. Angry that she does not have the courage to leave the wife beater. I am angry that she disrespects my parents the way she does. I am angry that she is destroying her life. She has turned into an ambitionless woman, who can’t see her life without the wife beater. I am angry at her for not getting the help she needs. I am angry at her for using the church as an excuse to go back to the wife beater. I am angry at myself for just watching her destroy herself. I want to kill the wife-beater. I want to make him suffer. I want to brainwash my sister so she can forget about him.
Through all the drugs, sex and alcohol she still wants him. I guess he is her addiction. I want to write her off and stop thinking of her and I want her to stop worrying me. I am selfish and all I think about is me.