It really has been a week from hell last week and this week is starting the same all over again. I feel like I am on some crazy roller-coaster without the safety belt. It’s mad, and I am unsure, I feel like a trainee all over again. The other consultants seem like they are out to get us. What happened to being professional and courteous? The people these days have no manners. It is so sad.
But Hubby has been great. We had a little episode Tuesday evening. Was me talking and not understanding, was hubby looking at me like his world has just caved in. He asked me:” Are you going to kick me out?” It was the saddest thing ever. Then he cannot stop apologising for his actions. I don’t know how this happens. I think I must just be agressive. I start out asking a question because I don’t understand something, and then we end up with him just about ready to cry and feeling like a loser. How do I do this to the man I love and could not live without. I can’t even call it a fight. Because there is no disagreement or anger. I cannot understand how I can hurt him so with one question.
Onto happier matters, we are both happy again, and I have assured him I am not kicking him anywhere (not that I have ever threatened any such bad thing).
I have been talking to my sister and she advises getting my body baby ready. Sounds mad, but she makes sense. She has had two and she says to avoid complications one should prepare before hand. So I have 18 months to prepare. Not sure what the plan of action is, but I’ll get my act together soon enough. I’m guessing I should start with the gynae. How I hate those visits. It’s like one of the most degrading things to have this doc checking you out and apologising every step of the way. Maybe I need a new doc.
Not a whole heap else going on with me. Work, hubby and the cold cold cold.